Finally

Well grad school applications are finally out and not a minute sooner than they had to be. I live life on the edge of everything, including deadlines. But seriously, one of my profs who was writing me a reference letter waited until today to give them to me (applications are due tomorrow), which was probably some lesson in procastination because I am usually the worst procrastinator. Hell, I've even given myself the title of Princess Procrastinor (the above mentioned prof is now my queen). But I was actually done them a few days ago, which would have saved me from having to overnight the 3 applications at a cost of $55 plus $60, $70 and $75 in application fees. I don't know what that adds up to, but its a lot.

I have to say, it is a relief to finally have those bullshit applications done. Now the waiting begins.

Work is about to be turned upside down because I am about the stir the pot. This bitch (I'll call her M) who used to work there and left without any notice is now coming back because the main hoebag (now A)who makes the hiring decisions is friends with her. I'm sorry, but anyone who leaves like that is a BAD employee and should not be rehired. Not only did she leave the place high and dry but she was a fuck up when she did work there! "M" told her current co-workers that she was coming back to work where I work because there was a special project that we needed her for. This is of course a complete lie, but thats her specialty along with spying on everyone and telling the above mentioned hoebag everything that goes on and everything that is said. And what do I plan to do about it? Well I am calling her out on this lie in front of everyone. Not one of those in-your-face calling outs but more innocent and naive about her lies. "M" is going down hardcore! Basically, my point is that I want her to know that I can get info about her just as much as she can share it with other people! Oh yea, I can't wait.
Stay tuned for my future entry about getting fired.

Peace Out

Jenn

Cash or credit

With the simple entry of my Mastercard number, I made a potentially life altering move tonight. I am no longer writing the LSAT in February, I have instead changed the date to June for the reasonable (sarcasm) price of $35 (Yankee scratch). On the surface it sounds like no big deal, but essentially I have made the decision to NOT go to law school next year. It's weird, I have wanted to be a lawyer for so long,yet it feels like I was able to make this decision so easily. It's not like I just decided not to go, I just dont have the time to do well on the LSAT, but in June I will have the time to study for it. I know from experience that I cannot take this lightly, I don't want to be the girl who was writing it for the 4th time (apparently I'm ok with just 3 times!). I don't really know how to feel about this, part of me is happy because that is one thing I dont have to be worrying about for the next few months. Part of me is sad because I feel like I've just killed the lawyer dream, a dream that has been alive and kicking as far back as I can remember, which is 3 months.
I also had a realization today thanks to Oprah. I need to get out there and do something, you know, try and make a difference. Today Oprah had Ricky Martin (whatever happened to that loco bastard?) on her show talking about his visit to Asia where he visited the areas most devastated by the Tsunami. He was talking about needing volunteers to rebuild houses in the area and volunteers to deliver aide to all of the people affected. I found myself really wanting to go there and DO something (not just for Ricky). There was also segments about child trafficking and the genocide in Africa. I thought about how I always think that my life is so shitty, but at least I have a home and don't have to live in fear of people coming and raping me or killing my entire family. Then I thought that I can't do anything, I mean how would I pay my bills if I spent the summer building houses in Asia? I thought about how fucking selfish it was to think that, but how fucking realistic it is at the same time. And how it all fucking sucks! I want to do something but I am tied down by the restraints of a capitalist system that demands I make my minimum credit card payments each and every month.
Now is the time that I would normally say how much my life sucks, but today, I just can't.

Jenn

For love of the chase

Ugh. So I am now starting to apply for grad schools and law schools. I have pretty much narrowed my choices down to 3 grad schools (SMU, SFU, and U of O) and 2 law schools (USask and UNB). I am writing the LSAT on Feb 12, and I am not looking forward to that. I guess I know what to expect now and hopefully I can pull it off.
Work, as usual is total bullshit. People are getting laid off left and right for no reason other than the boss having a panic. She is so unrealistic about projects and how long they will take and how many people are needed. However, she does not care about people. I believe she has been quoted as saying "If they(her employess) don't like it (the bullshit) they can find another job". I know I can't unless I want to work at some stupid fastfood joint again, and I am sorry but that will never happen. So many people are drunk with power there and they think running the place like a dictatorship, where everyone lives in fear of their rath will make for a more productive work environment. I'm sorry, but I am not productive when I'm trying not to pee my pants in fear that I too will face the lay off.
School this semester is awesome. I am taking 3 classes and they all rock. I only needed to take 2 but I have been swayed to stay in all 3. My classes are Ethnography of Crime, Discourse in Crime and Peacemaking Criminology. All 3 profs are awesome and the seminar setting is perfect.
The only thing standing in the way of the perfect semester and therefore perfect graduation, is a looming faculty strike. Hopefully that won't happen and life can go on and I can graduate May 9th, 2005.
Anyways, my blog is totally boring but some day, some time, something funny will happen and I will undoubtably write about it.

Jenn

On the bandwagon

So I decided to join the hoards of people deserting one blog for another. Not that I hadn't abandoned my previous blog months ago. I jumped ship on the bitch without really giving it a chance. I don't know what makes me think this time will be any different, but I will give it my all. If nothing else, this will be the perfect distraction from writing my thesis and various other bullshit I am suppose to do for school. As you all know, I am the worlds worst, nay, best procrasinator. Par example, I should be doing some work on said thesis right now, but I'm not!
I am now in the process of applying for grad schools and that is another stressor. There are 4 I really want to apply to, but thats $400 out of pocket just to apply! Its all fucking bullshit.
Without much to write for now I shall bid adieu and make the empty promise of updating on a regular basis.

Peace Out